2004-09-03 - 11:21 p.m.
I was in the laundry all day; you begin to know the residents very well when you clean their rooms and do their laundry. That's not really to my credit, it's just very strange that you know so many people, even down to their clothes. It's always a good one hundred degrees in laundry room; I'm cold in my living room now. What do you do with a day like today?
The weekend will be long, but not something difficult. I miss someone very much. Everyone has their own brand of advice to give, everyone has something sobering to say and something negative. I'm learning to weigh it all, but there are some that I trust more than others...
I'm really learning, no, I'm starting to understand the strategy of the enemy. I realized that while I didn't sleep a wink last night (there was so much anticipation, so much anxiety...and temptation), I understand the enemy's desire to interupt my prayer life and confidence in Christ. By yielding to anxiety, temptation, and worry, I forfeit good. This past week has taught me the relative ease and simplicity of my life. I don't have cancer, I don't have a child on the way, I'm not moving to Austin. Infact, I just got a mega larger paycheck than ever before, yet I don't feel like I'm collapsing. God is providing; a large payment to the credit card, hope for getting out of debt and school, and with paychecks like these, God is letting me swim like an Olympian. Praise Heaven! She's gone for a few days, but not for good. I'm just learning to wait; again, again, ect... Just don't tell me there isn't good in my life. I see the enemy's movement, I see my hopes, I see the future; God is going to be glorified, and I'll be a provider someday soon. That's really good for me, it's just in time anyway.
anway.
