2004-09-18 - 10:24 p.m.
I realized something really hard today. Friendship was probably over now. Especially if she gets asked out and becomes someone else's girlfriend; I realized friendships don't last stuff like this. I didn't know her anymore anyway, she doesn't like my personality anymore anyway...she was just settling before she left me.
I lost my bestfriend and it's silly how tough it is. I didn't mean to misplace so much. I don't want advice, I don't need it. I don't want hope, I can't keep it. I don't want 'tough love' telling me to let it go, I know that already. If anyone wants to be nice to me, just bow your head and say a quick prayer for me, cause I'll get over this when I get over it. It's different for her because she has a new friend in the wings...he listens better. I need to learn how to listen.
Don't say it...I know, I know.
