2004-12-24 - 3:10 a.m.
He remembered half joking, half mocking her. He laughed at the idea of always seeing a bright light. Cause mankind gets so fixated on being refreshed, he never gets thirsty. An incident here, and glimpse there and there's hope again. While all the people that really fought for something, the people that had something to complain about watch and wonder at some of us.
Me? I don't know, I always make sure I've put myself in a no win situation before I look for hope. This is the most cynical Christmas I've ever experienced. I can put a notch on my belt for the first time I've ever experienced all emotions in such a short time.
Hope? I'm going to smoke a cigarette in seven degree weather and think as quickly as I can about what needs to happen, what will never happen, and what I really want. Can't run from God forever. I'm getting sick of it anyway; oh.
anyway..
