2005-03-08 - 3:52 p.m.
I've seen it before and it causes me pause. I've seen people do things to others, and those things they did were repeated on them. I've seen it go down just like that. Reaping and Sowing; we are always surprised to see it happen, but we shouldn't be.
It used to give me grim satisfaction to see this Law of Sowing and Reaping in play, but I was forced to view the things I had sown. I've been jealous, I've been angry to the point of sin, I've been lustful, envious, and self-righteous... Those aren't the things I would tend to look for in someone else, but I've sown those things. What have you sown?
But there's good news; we don't have to watch this play on and on like it does. I've been judgemental because of things other people did to me. Left to my own satisfaction or lack thereof, I will never be happy with any apology, and I will never feel like those that have hurt me really understood the magnitude of what they have done. I sometimes don't even think God could even understand the dismay I've felt towards him when I feel like I've been forsaken. Truth is, they won't understand, nor even care to be realistic; but God cares and knows.
I don't want to judge, I don't want to sow any more of this bad will into my future any longer. So I look into my past and wonder what I've sown, I take those things to the cross and seek healing from myself and all ill that I've seen. Cause anymore, I don't like bitterness, I don't like saddness like I used to. We were made for joy.
So there it is in print.
