2005-04-05 - 3:47 a.m.
I challenged him to ask for the Lord to reveal himself in a dream. He took the challenge and asked for it; he received a dream. He told me what it was and what happened, and I think it might be sent from God. I don't know yet...
It's been a difficult challenge lately seeing it happen from so close. I am afraid sometimes, afraid I might be doing more harm than good. I fear for his marriage and I don't want to be a link in the chain reaction that causes it to explode. God knows that fear, and I know the voices in my head telling me to do one thing or another. Sigh...
So I just ask for grace; I'm scared of causing more grief. What if God doesn't show up? What if it's a lost cause? I don't like to voice doubts like this, but my heart is troubled. I would like to see what this might all mean. Tomorrow, I am going to speak with Dean. I will get up and really seek wisdom, and prayer. I want to have my mission made valid by the Lord; speaking and praying in authority. A clean life and a clear conscience. I want to be a disciple in action, no longer hiding in the process.
What dreams may come...
