2005-07-12 - 5:47 p.m.
"It's not to will or why, but to do and die." Ralph Waldo Emerson said that once, it was obvious that he had no experience on a battle field, nor have I.
It's a temptation to glorify something you don't understand, just as well as it is to demonize it. I haven't much to say, but I do find my choices having more weight than I anticipated. Not so much for the past, but I feel myself living out the possibilities of the future choices.
I desire to find a wife someday, a best friend, a partner, I desire a field of work where the lines are not clear. Put simply, your tools are the Spirit, the Scriptures, charity, prayer, and trust. I find the chance to serve a millitary commission to be well-paying (especially for a single man, and even a married man for that matter), and perhaps the honor and experience too. Should I not be able to find a wife or a field, this is an excellent opportunity to serve with distinction and pursue public service (another hidden desire of mine since I was a kid).
I don't know; things are in God's hands and I believe I am as safe in bed as I am on any battlefield. My steps are certainly known, and God will direct me aright. Reguardless, there is much to do before the 'rest of my life' begins. This is going to be an interesting summer still.
I wish I could anticipate the future with retrospect.
