2005-07-21 - 1:49 a.m.
Is it faithful to await an answer from God that would transcend all illusion and uncertainty? Is it more faithful to look at the practical side of things in order to pursue a different depth, a seperate end?
I ask because I've been waiting on the Lord to show me His will. Anymore, I don't know if I need to ask. Maybe it's best to pull God out of the box and make a choice. I say that because I realized I didn't want to be a slave anymore; waiting and watching for an answer to every question. I'd rather be a son and choose to serve God with the mind and choices that He designed me to make.
The consequence is that I won't always get to see or feel a hand on the shoulder each time I loose a battle. The reward is that I learn to sense the will and purpose of God without the need for grandstanding at every turn. Just a thought I guess, but certainly worth consideration. I want freedom.
In light of who I am in Christ and future reality, it's not much of a loss.
