2005-07-29 - 12:09 a.m.
Third ear?
Yes, the more the Saint surrenders to the will of Christ, the more His heart is clear of nonsense; He shall hear more.
--and it has not been easy either.
I am the Big Bang, I am better than I realized and darker than my worst nightmares. Little holds me to the path, just hope that there is stronger food waiting for me. The weather says it all; God is good. I am not going to change like I had hoped, it turns out there was some gold inside that didn't need to be thrown out, it just needed some fire.
Remember, Earth shall not be a very distinct place when it all ends. For some, it will have been just a mild region of Hell, and others, Heaven. There is nothing evil in me that cannot be transformed into a beautiful stallion. There is nothing beautiful in me that cannot be made more perfect either. I have to be careful not to confuse preference with reality. I shouldn't confuse regret with remorse.
I have recently put many things in God's hands so much I don't even care how they end up anymore; they belong to God. I regret my methods most of the time, I've never been as sure of myself as I've let on. Doesn't matter, the surrender may have been ugly; that's not the point. Point is, things are in God's hands now, and they are so big I don't even seem to see them anymore.
The weather just shouts 'freedom' these days.
